ACTION!

Just under a month until we start shooting the film...HOLY SHIT! Anyway, most of the 37 extras that were "200% up for it" can't be arsed to reply to us, so we're not sure how many un-dead we'll have.

Oh yeah, I'm making a short horror film with my friend Cal, based in York, similar vain to 28 Days/Weeks Later, the crazed zombies, not the slow, retarded ones. If we wanted those we could just film in Netto.

Chris who is filming it for us is great, really enthusiastic, knows his stuff, warped sense of humour, perfect. Another Chris and a Clark on the music...too many people to mention right now. We hope it's going to turn out as good as we think it is, we've worked hard and loved every (almost) second of it. Good skills for daaan saaaaf. You have to make your own opportunities, they'll rarely come to you (apart from those people mentioned in earlier post).

Not looking forward to seeing/hearing myself on screen. No one else seems any different, but watching yourself is...urgh, I hate it, man. Hearing yourself is even worse! Was hoping that a certain someone was going to audition from Manchester - totally gorgeous, but he never put his money where his mouth was either. Tart.

BOCK!

Hectic Thinking.

Blimey!!!

I move to London in less than 2 months, I still don't have anywhere to live and no money to speak of. Why does chasing a dream have to be so difficult and frightening? I suppose we wouldn't appreciate our achievement's if they all came easy.

Some do get it easy, though. I know people who get everything they want on a plate and they never have to work for it. They have shitty attitudes toward hard work, loyalty, friendship, commitment...pretty shoddy personalities, but there it all is for them, just like that. How does that work???

The past 3 years for me have been the craziest of my life. I started acting, I fell in love (unrequited - shit!), I made some extraordinary friends and met some extraordinary arseholes. I'm reaching the point now where I'm learning to stop caring about the people who don't care about me, I've given so much of myself to others who just take and take. All they know how to do is take and I'm pretty fucking sick of it.

So, no more Mrs. Nice Guy, I've had it. I'm taking everything I've learnt and everything I'm still learning with me and I'm going to be the biggest success I possibly can. And when each of you who took my friendship for granted and used me come crawling back, I'll happily turn and walk away.

BOCK!

Hmmm...

Whenever I join a new website it takes me ages to figure out how it all works. I'll be adding stories, poetry and just general nonsense to this site, I'm thinking of it as an alternative to actually talking to people :-)

Forgive me if I take ages sussing it out!